gender-variance

Who’s that Girl?

by Bedford Hope on October 25, 2010

Fridays my kids and I fight big-city, weekend traffic to make pilgrimages to suburban malls. Our adopted gay-uncle, (also decidedly not neuro-typical) and the kids aren’t impressed by shopping venues available via public transit. My tweenage, gender-nonconforming son, worships retail.

Playing chauffeur to both kids, I end up picking up Oscar and uncle on a street-corner outside the mall. As I wait at the curb I find myself studying a tall girl with shoulder length hair in a cinched dark navy coat. Then I experience the shock that so many feel on seeing my willowy, twelve year old boy.

The girl is my boy.

The coat is a gift from a neighbor; a beautiful thing rendered obsolete by the inevitable thickening of middle age. He smiles and waves and, zing, he’s my boy again, and we’re off to drop off his brother’s sudden and rare friend. Oscar’s brother isn’t exactly neurotypical. Our uncle connects to us at several levels, you see.  But that’s a different story.

And it strikes me, watching Oscar later that night, putting on a YouTube character, a blue-lipsticked goth, that gender is a kind of costume we wear upon a common humanity which transcends male and female. We’re so tuned at ferreting out these differences that we fail to see the overlap, our shared humanity. Men and women are more alike than different, and the gender-queers confuse because our senses are honed to obscure this fundamental reality.

We are human beings, and our ultimate salvation lies in being humane.

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My Slate Piece is Online

by Bedford Hope on August 3, 2010

My Slate piece is now on-line.

I would like to apologize profusely to Johnny Weir for my casual and wrong comment on his identity which I had read somewhere, but not double-checked. He is a wonderful human being, his communication with our children was perfect, compassionate, affirming. I am ashamed to have made any presumptions about him.

Also I confess to being taken aback at some of the comments, even though some raise valid points. The editorial process shifted the focus of the piece slightly, and the title is off-putting, though perhaps more news-worthy. My use of pronoun reflects the confusion and day-to-day reality of parents struggling with a changing growing child, and a changing growing awareness of that child’s identity.

I am most upset that my own relationship to the word ‘normal’ is so enraging . I have used the word normal to mean “like 90% of the population.” The notion that normal is good, that people want to be normal, is foreign to me, but then, as a white-het-male, if I reject that privilege, I also can’t empathize with what it would be like to be forever denied it.

Great people, artists, writers, activists, persecuted minorities, in my mind, have always been more than normal and I have aspired to be with them; separate and by virtue of that struggle, somewhat superior to the great normative mass of humanity. I know this view is in itself romantic and in its own way, patronizing.

But it is how I feel, and it is where that language comes from.

I want to thank everyone for all their wonderful and moving and inspiring comments over the last few years, and I want to apologize to them for taking the few negative comments so to heart. It’s another flaw in my nature I struggle with, as I struggle with my Bipolar difference, and other things.

Read the piece in the spirit it was intended, if you can. I have to take responsibility for the edit that has gone to print. I did my best.

p.s. I am no longer going to use the word normal in the context of gender; I’ll use CID-tendered. normal is scientifically accurate and culturally unusable. I was in part attempting to capture the parent’s experience of leaving the world of the 90-99 percent majority using a word that that majority understood.

glbtq is natural; natural can be seen as normal, even when rare.

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Letter to a Concerned Parent of a Gender Variant Six-Year-Old

April 9, 2010

A concerned parent on an email list recently asked the list for advice on their young boy who likes girl things. This happens every few weeks, and I write the letter over and over again in various ways. It goes something like this: Dear Parent, You should tell your young son that there are many [...]

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Consequences for Bullies

February 22, 2010

If you grew up in the 60s and 70s, you send your kids to school with a vague sense of unease. Sure, Kindergarten looks gentle and fun, but there are those bigger kids barreling through the hallways. If you got to a K-8, the eight graders look ready to go to war or bear children. [...]

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New Study Confirms Supportive Parenting Does Not Hurt Gender Non-Conforming Children

January 12, 2010

I’ve had the opportunity to read a draft of a recent study by Hill, D.B., Menvielle, E., Sica, K.M., &  Johnson, A. (2010), of children in different therapeutic environments published in The Journal of Sex & Marital Therapy shows that supportive / accepting parenting is associated with lower rates of mental illness. From the abstract: When [...]

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Tomgirls vs. The Thing Without A Name

September 28, 2009

It is perhaps the only way in which being female is easier than being male. A young girl reaching outside her gender stereotype is encouraged. Sports? Yes! Science and math? Of course! Pants? Short hair? Sure. Oh, there’s a price to pay if she gets too boyish—especially as puberty approaches. She’ll get stuck into a category—tomboy. But even that is seen as transitory—nothing to worry about. Puberty will straighten her out!

If a boy who reaches out for feminine things is ‘encouraged’ social services is notified. Nobody calls social services about a short haired girl in pants.

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Goodbye, Cinderella

February 19, 2009

A father say’s goodbye to the young boy princess, with love, consternation, and gratitude.

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