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Consequences for Bullies

by ejayo on February 22, 2010

If you grew up in the 60s and 70s, you send your kids to school with a vague sense of unease. Sure, Kindergarten looks gentle and fun, but there are those bigger kids barreling through the hallways. If you got to a K-8, the eight graders look ready to go to war or bear children. Or both at once. You remember things you wish you didn’t. Moments that hurt you in ways that nothing before or since ever have.

Maybe you’re one of the lucky ones with no such memories; the strange thing is, most kids have them—how is it that everyone was a bullied nerd, and no one was the bully? (During World War Two, every Frenchmen was in the resistance, too.)

Most of us reading this blog have horror stories. Beatings and fights and wedgies. The kid who sat next to me in high-school hung himself halfway through the school year, and I spent the rest of the year in my assigned seat, with Joe’s seat empty beside me, as I contemplated following him into oblivion. We carry this stuff around with us forever. There’s a reason the High School film is a box office staple. School is the place where often, for better or worse, we define ourselves.

So you pack your kid off to school, wondering. Do we have to move to the suburbs?  Is a private school necessary? Should we home school? Could we afford that…would it drive us crazy?

School seems different, where we are now, at any rate.

We toured the schools (our district has School Choice) and found them changed almost beyond recognition. Gone the grids of desks bolted to the ground facing the blackboard wall. In our school, the Mr. and Mister have been dropped. Say Hello to Principal Bill! Every room, K-4 has a carpeted area where kids gather for the morning meeting, and sometimes sit reading books. Desks are pushed together in pods; teachers move from Pod to pod working with kids moving at their own speeds, some with specialized curriculum and affordances.

Kids with ADD have little toys they can fiddle with. Two out of ten kids have pull-out instruction and IEPs; they get extra help with math, reading, their handwriting, and there are so many of them there seems to be no stigma attached.

And in many places, The Lord of the Flies, don’t ask don’t tell attitude towards bullying is a thing of the past.

The girl who bullied my kid on the bus was kicked off that bus for a week. This gets a parent’s attention, as they must know make arrangements to get that kid to and from school themselves. She had to write a two page essay on bullying, and have her father sign the document and return it. Bullys and their victims meet with a vice principal and are led through a conflict resolution process; witness are called, competing versions of what happened are reconciled, and consequences are meted out.

In Oscar’s case, it turns out that he’d been saving up incidents and not reporting them, so as they spilled out, it was hard to sort out what had happened when, but eventually the girl, who denied everything, was confronted with witnesses who made her acknowledge what she’d done. New to our school, I have no doubt that what she thought, and did, lurks in the hearts of many of the kids around Oscar every day.

But, when push comes to shove, bullying Oscar just isn’t worth the hassle.

For one thing, he doesn’t turn on himself. Call him a name and he responds with a shriek of even-more-foul-obscenity. Frequently his language is itself a violation of school policy, as it was on the Bus last week. (Oscar’s teacher once informed me that while she knew that ‘rules were different in our house,’ but we needed to tell Oscar that in school there were words he couldn’t use. Um. Thanks.)

“We decided to let the language go this time,” the Vice Principal told me. “We wanted Oscar to feel supported. We knew this was hard for him.”

Going through the motions of the therapeutic give and take I’m sure means nothing for many of the kids, no more than does sensitivity training or court-ordered AA. But these are all consequences. So they matter.

If you think about it, the fact that fighting—assaults—between children were more or less shrugged off in our childhoods, and that verbal abuse was considered just a part of growing up, is odd, because these are things adults do not tolerate among themselves.

If a coworker punched or spit on your or grabbed your underwear, there would be consequences. Even in the 60s and 70s adults wouldn’t dream of tolerating this, among themselves.

If your kid is being bullied, please go to Google and type ‘Bullying resources,’ and see what pops up. There’s help out there, and in the end, there are legal recourses in many states that can create consequences for schools who turn a blind eye on bullying, by punching the institution in its pocketbook.

All that’s required is that we stop thinking of bullying as a part of growing up. Because it only is if we, collectively, let it be. Once a critical mass of concerned parents act, bullying recedes. It may never be completely eliminated, but it no longer has to be the defining experience of childhood.

Childhood should be fun.

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The Little Girl, The Rock Star, and Normal 2.0

by admin on November 8, 2009

rockstarIf you’re the type of person who liked to think of themselves as hip; creative; bohemian, unbound by convention, having your first kid can be a humbling experience. Because as it happens, you enter a world of norms.

You find yourself saying the things that everyone says, cliches you might call them, if they didn’t express  your most deeply felt emotions. As in the time that you look into your first-born son’s unexpected and equisitely blue eyes, and know that your life is forever changed. That you will never be the same.

After awhile, you get used to it. Life is filled with an endless parade of needful things. If you’re lucky, you have family around to help, or friends going  through the same thing at the same time. Maybe you buy a house. Look for a school. Like it or not, you flow into a norm. Maybe you resist the lure of the suburbs; do the family bed, whatever. Sure, you’re still a rebel. Hah. Finally you accept that in some ways, you are normal, and that is a perfectly fine thing to be.

Then your son won’t take off the princess dress at daycare; at preschool; in kindergarten. Whatever your feelings about this, the reality is, you aren’t there, and you can’t stop it. After months or years of total immersion with you, your kids are having social experiences with other kids, and  you think it’s good for them.

And all the teachers laugh and tell you the tutu doesn’t mean a thing.

And as you emerge, as an accepting, supportive parent, you find you’ve left Kansas far behind. You aren’t normal anymore. Thehomilies other parents sling at you at the park—How pretty your older girl is; how different daughters are from sons. Oh, all the ways boys are nothing like girls! And girls are nothing like boys!

No, you’re not normal at all.

In fact, until you find a support group, you are one of the loneliest people on the planet; your kid seems to0 young, and too happy, to be permanently labeled transgender or gay, but his focus, intense, unending focus, on cross-gendered play, is certainly something. So there follows, the internet searches, the therapists, the books, the soul-searching.

Now you’re more bohemian than you ever had any intention of being.

My wife and attended a PFLAG event a five minute walk from our house, made up exclusively of same-sex parents and gender normative children. We were pleasant to each other. We didn’t feel welcomed or accepted, particularly. We had nothing to bond over.

We were so lucky, that our parents came on-board quickly, instantly. My mother-in-law had come to grips with her own son’s homosexuality years before. My parents were a pair of retired university professors. The worst you could say about my parents was how sorry they seemed to feel for us; this extra layer of concern and fear, layered on top of your own.

Eventually we found support, in the form of the mailing lists which you can find in the ‘Resources for Parents’ sidebar of this blog.

And we both found we could breathe again. We hadn’t realized we’d been holding our breaths, for years, but we had been. Other kids like ours, other families, like ours. Kids older, kids younger, kids the same age. So many similarities; our kids seemed cut from the cloth. This is one of the ways people are.

And mostly, our kids are happy, or they start out happy. No one has told them to hate themselves for being who they are. Yet. And it’s your job to try to stop that from happening, and to make sure you kid knows, when it does happen, that it’s the other kid who is being the jerk.

Little kids are supposed to do what you tell them to do. You dress them, you feed them, you socialize them. So, when a kid does something weird, well, it’s the parent’s fault, isn’t it? Unless of course, the condition has a name. Tourettes, ADD, Asperger’s, oppositional defiant disorder (ODD) .

If you want to justify your kids oddness, you better pick a name, and figure out what story you’re telling. And then, you worry about the parents who think you are a over-reacting hypochondriacal ninny creating a self-fullfilling prophecy. Then there’s the parade of  bulllshit psychogenic explanations. Too much mom! Not enough dad! Abuse! Bad parenting! Permissiveness! Utopian egalitarianism!

You learn how to talk about your kid, how to explain them, when to explain them, and when to smile and nod and keep moving. People glaze over, they freeze up, they are nice, they are too nice. Preschool, Kindergarten, first grade, second, third, fourth, fifth, six, seventh…then.

Puberty. Your little boy-girl, who passed so perfectly for so long, no longer looks like these budding young women. He has the long hair, the clothes, the gestures, but he’s all angles, sharp edges. And now, when people see him, they don’t see a little girl, or a boy with a crazy parent, they see…the rock star.

David Bowie or Marc Bolan, Spinal Tap or Led Zepplin; Glam or Emo, it doesn’t matter.  Because tweenagers and teenagers don’t do what you tell them to, and your kid is just another one of them. The parents would have judged you a few years back now commiserate.

According to the experts, many gender non-conforming children eventually identify as gay, and as they figure this out, the cross-dressing changes, goes away, by itself. If your son is emerging as a gay man, he learns that being a princess isnt a good way to attract another gay man. At least, that is what the experts tell me. (But I see something a bit more nuanced. Our kids are redefining what it means, to be gay, to be straight, or they will. Soon.)

Some gender variant kids figure out that they must go on to interventions; hormones, blockers, eventually surgeries. For them, puberty is a nightmare, as their androgynous bodies betray them. I’ve met some of these kids, and once you do, you know; this is real, this isn’t crazy, this makes sense. These kids need these interventions, and the results are amazing. I’ve met girls born as boys, boys born as girls, and they are as Girl, or as Boy, as any girl or boy you’re likely to meet.

But for many of us, we find ourselves suddenly and unexpectedly doubling back on normalcy. Well, normalcy 2.0.

Your little girl is now a rock star. A teenager. Kids these days!

What are you going to do?

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